Twitter? *BARF*



Let me preface this blog with: This is in no way a slight, nor is it intended to make light of people who struggle with addiction.

So…This week I’ve decided that I am a Facebook Addict and have since opted to give it a week’s rest… So, like any other addict (spoken out of ignorance), I put down one vice and pick up another, Twitter.

I know that Tweeter is the newest phenom, but I mean, really?! Come on! Everytime I’m on there it’s some random “ERROR”!!! An error no man’s every heard of, but yet is expected to accept it!

“Twitter is over capacity” Have you ever heard tell of such a thing?! Over capacity?

“There’s an internal server error” Again, really?!

“Oops, something went wrong” Question mark?!

Really?! Again?! Come oooonnn!!!

It’s ALWAYS something pretty much saying “PLEASE TRY AGAIN………. JUST LATER!”


Why can’t Twitterville get it together!!!!! JUST GET IT TOGETHER! I’ll be the first to admit that I’m not the hugest fan of Twitter; This being a primary example, but I also don’t feel the need to constantly update others about my whereabouts & thereabouts… Ummmm… Not that I’d be able to, even if I wanted to!!!!!!!!! *sigh*

I’d tell you to follow me, lifeandtruth, but how?! BECAUSE THERE’S ALWAYS AN ERROR & not a I.D.10.T error either!

Twitter, though you are my drug of choice this week, I will return to the real thing next week; Facebook!



Itchy Tongue


Picture that person that gets under your skin every single time they enter a room… They don’t even have to speak or even acknowledge your presence, but somehow you’re instantaneously annoyed…


Imagine the intense sense of irritation that you feel merely by their presence and NOW add them speaking to the picture! It is a recipe for disaster… Well, for my tongue anyway…

We often view it as gossiping… When the person leaves the room and you can’t wait to share your frustration and annoyance with someone…anyone else… Almost like the immediate irritation of a mosquitoe bite on human flesh…YOU CAN’T WAIT TO SCRATCH IT! But then something refrains you…

What could it be?! Why can’t you  just say it?!

Just because a mosquitoe bites itches, does it mean that it should be scratched?! Scratching leaves scars and could even lead to infection if “handle” improperly… Why is my tongue any different?

Just because I want to say it, does it mean that it should be said? ABSOLUTELY NOT!

So, the next you or I have an itchy tongue, I guess we should give it a little more consideration before scratching it…


“The Game”


Have you ever wondered why the pursuit of love seemed like such a game?! We spend our lives in search of “love & happiness,” but will that ever really exist with another person…or is it all just a game? If it’s a game, who’s holding the instructions?!

Boy likes girl… Girl likes boy… “No expectations”… Boy likes girl… Girl messes up… Girls pleads her “undying love,” but….

But what?!

That’s my question exactly… If you make your wants & desires known, what’s “expected” next? Can you continue to express your “desire” despite the others lack of enthusiam? How much of yourself do you “expose” without any “feedback” from the one whose affection you desire?

You think of situations where women get pregnant by other men, lie, cheat, steal… One decides to get themselves together and it is treated as though it was the greatest scandal, but you press…

You understand the hurt and the reservations, but what do you do? If you were to go with your natural inclination, you’d just keep planning the “dates” and the outings; reaching out hoping & praying that one would reach back OR do you now guard yourself because the one you want is guarded?


If you chose the latter, isn’t that just a game?

It’s all a game EXCEPT I have NO IDEA who’s holding the instructions…


Good Good?


“If you got that good good and you know it, ladies show him where’s it at(right here) Where it’s at (right here)See, I don’t know what them other girls be doin, they be cryin’ bout they man Cause they always losin’ They need that (good good) gotta have that (good good) to keep him (good good)You need that (good good)” Ashanti~

The above quote was in a “friend’s” status on facebook & it got me to thinking. Is this what our girls, young women, & women believe? Is this what “we’re” pumping into impressionable minds?! Well, of course it is!!! After all, if you don’t open your legs, wine & dine him then he’ll find someone else.

I once dated a guy who told me that “I didn’t want to do what it takes to ‘please’ my ‘significant other.'” By this he was indicating that I wasn’t physical enough to have a boyfriend.

On another occasion I had two women in my peer group say to me “you can’t withhold sex & expect him not to cheat on you.”

Now, for those of us who are romantics, this is “devastating” news. You mean to say that sex is the only means by which one can “find love?”

Sex does not love make… Sex does not a relationship make and lastly…Sex does not a marriage make…

“If you got that good good and you know it, ladies show him where’s it at(right here) Where it’s at (right here)See, I don’t know what them other girls be doin, they be cryin’ bout they man Cause they always losin’ They need that (good good) gotta have that (good good) to keep him (good good)You need that (good good)” Ashanti~

Instead of teaching our girls that they are fearfully and wonderfully made and that a man who FINDS a WIFE, has found a good thing, we teach them that the way to their hearts and any man’s heart is in between her legs. Sex leads to the heart alright; right into soul-ties and a UNgaurded/UNprotected heart. Not to mention that being promiscuous leads to “3 Million cases of sexually transmitted diseases/ year and 1 Million pregnancies/ year.” And what’s even more disheartening is that this statistic is solely dealing with teenagers…

“Among teens each year there are about 3 million cases of sexually transmitted diseases (STDs), and approximately 1 million pregnancies. Human immunodeficiency virus (HIV) infection is the sixth leading cause of death among persons aged 15-24 years in the United States.
(Source, Centers for Disease Control, Atlanta, GA)”

So now what’s “good, good”?

Peace & Love~

This Just In…


…Almost a week ago, for the first time in 27 years, I SHAVED MY LEGS!!

Some of you may be thinking “what in the heck,” but you heard me right! For the first time in my entire life, I shaved my legs!

Growing up the women in my family have always tried to deter me from doing such a thing. I believe this was primarily because of the upkeep; to protect me of those pesky pricklies (yes I typed “pricklies”)… And well…. because they never shaved their legs!

Now, because I had a true reverence and fear of my parents, I obeyed their wishes and actually began to take pride in the fact that I had NEVER shaved my legs.

In my eyes, I was fortunate because the hair on my legs was “minimal,” but one day…………

I noticed that after many, many years, my mother, the woman I emulate, had done the unspeakable; she had shaved her legs!!!!!!!!!

Now, to some, you may think “well, of course she did.” I held off for a while longer, but it seemed as though every time I looked down at my legs, there was more hair!

So, on Thursday, July 29, 2010 I decided it was time!!!

After shaving the first leg, I looked at the other leg in disgust as I thought “you look so dirty.” LOL

I believe it’s the best thing since exfoliation…Can’t believe I didn’t do it sooner…

Happy Shaving…

Peace & Love~

Overcome or Overwhelmed?




Overcome by the blood, but overwhelmed by life. Overcome by our testimony, but overwhelmed by judgement. Overcome by the price that He paid on the cross, but overwhelmed by condemnation.

Are we overcome or just overwhelmed?

We are overcome by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of our testimony. To overcome means “to get the better of” and to testify means to make a statement on personal knowledge or belief; bear witness; to serve as evidence of proof. The most personal definition is to express or make known a personal conviction.

Are we overcome or just overwhelmed?

I generally tend to pride myself on being transparent, but as I get older I realize that being “transparent” isn’t always to the good; Others can’t always handle the truth of me; the free spirit of me. Often times I find myself very frustrated, wanting to block off expressing myself, my wants, my desires for fear of other’s opinions, judgements, or thoughts on how my life should be lived.

Am I overcome or just overwhelmed by my thoughts and feelings?

As long as one is living life according to Christ and doing their best to ensure that everything in their life brings God glory, who am I to pass judgement or give my two cent otherwise? Friends are to be support; a shoulder to lean on and someone to help stand in difficult times.

Are we overcome or simply over-guided?

I have found today, that I often misuse this scripture and mistake it for saying “we overcome by telling other’s our business.” As if to say, “I’m helping others by sharing of myself.” Now, I know to some extent this is true, but in reading another translation, it states that we overcome by the message of God (Revelation 12:11 CEV.) Does this imply that I do not necessarily need to share of my personal life in order to “help” others overcome? 

Overcome by the blood, but overwhelmed by life? Overcome by our testimony, but overwhelmed by judgement? Overcome by the price that He paid on the cross, but overwhelmed by condemnation?

We are overcome. Overcome by the blood of the Lamb and overcome by the bold word of our witness (The Message translation).


The message of God.

Peace & Love~

“Chew the Straw & Spit Out the Sticks”



I thought this was so well said when spoken by former American Idol contestant, Melinda Doolittle on TBN in an interview with Jason Crabb.

In listening to her speak on American Idol, life, and her new book, you can’t help but be captivated by her sweet, genuine spirit & zeal for life!

Often times in life we/I struggle with what’s said to us/me, about us/me or even around us/me. The number of negative remarks that a child hears by the time they reach the age of 18 is astronomical compared to the number of positive, character building statements that are heard by that age!

 Melinda Doolittle’s mother says “chew the straw and spit out the sticks.” Chew up those things that are meant to make you stronger and develop character, but spit out those things that are meant to hurt you.

This is a nice reminder; everything that’s said to you/me isn’t meant to be for your/my good. We live in a world that is so full of  ‘self’ and ‘self gain.’ “We” will do whatever it takes to satisfy our “needs” and wants & we are even willing to abuse others with our words to a point of total destruction. 

While spitting out those sticks may be easier said than done, remember that negativity is designed to keep us down; to keep us from completing a set task or goal. As long as you’re down, you’ll/we’ll/I’ll make it easy for the “undeserving” to rise above and potentially claim what’s yours/ours/mine.

Be encouraged & spit out those sticks!!!


~Steel Grey~

Rimmel London Polish Review

 Here’s a new twist on my blog; my first review! YAY!!!

I am unashamedly a “product junky.” I see something and think “I HAVE TO TRY THIS!” It can be a rather intense feeling!!! 🙂
I’m in CVS and I see this Rimmel London Lasting Finish Pro polish!
The brush is designed to keep you from getting polish all over your skin and cuticles and when I say that this polish is pretty much amazing… IT’S AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Based off of color, cost, and it’s now convincing effectiveness, I would give it 4 out of 5!!!!
Color: Steel Grey
Cost: $3.99
I would imagine you can pick it up at your local drug store!!! I did!!!!
Now to put it to the test…How long will it last???!!!

Everything To Me?


Have you ever thought “will I ever know You that way?”

With tears in my eyes, I begin to fret over the thought; “maybe I will never know Him or experience Him the ‘way’ that others know and experience Him.” Now, to some this may sound as though I am comparing my spiritual walk to that of another believer’s spiritual walk, but please be advised that I am not. While I know and understand that “no two walks are alike,” I can’t help but wonder will I ever experience Him miraculously and supernaturally in my life?… Will I ever have such an unwavering faith that I CAN say to this mountain ‘move from here to there’ Matthew 17:20)?

I listen to those around me discuss their blessings, what they’re greatful for, and how God has been working their life and I pause and think “WOW, that’s AWESOME”… all the while walking away wondering “what am I doing ‘wrong'”?

Now, on the flip side of this, I also ask myself “what things/blessings should I be thankful for that I continue to take for granted?” For example, it’s no accident that the birds begin churpping every morning at the same time. It’s not to be taken lightly that He OPTED to put life in my lungs. NOR is it to be taken for granted that He keeps His hedge of proctection around me EVERYDAY on the highways while commuting several miles to and from work on a daily basis. Not to mention His AWESOME GRACE and MERCY!

What am I missing?

The lyrics of Tye Tribbet’s “Everything To Me” come to mind. By faith we say these words, but when will we be able to say them whole heartedly? To unashamedly say it with our whole being “YOU’RE EVERYTHING TO ME” without compromising or downplaying His importance and His glory in our lives?

With such a strong desire to serve The One and only TRUE God, I can’t help but wonder why there’s so much “struggle.” Then I am reminded “many are the afflictions of the righteous” (Psalm 34:19) and the kind of faith that I desire will only come through prayer and fasting (Matthew 17:21).

Not an easy pill to swallow on most days, but nothing else will do; I’ve got to do something to fulfill this dip yearning to know You.

Will I ever know You that way?





There’s got to be more to this thing called “life.” “State jobs” are cool, but why do I have to take that route and WASTE my youth on things that don’t bring me fulfillment? God gave me my gifts and talents and the desire to do more so why should I waste it on being scared and not “taking chances”? Now, I don’t mean to use this as some means to be stupid and flighty, but I want more… I deserve more… I can give more………

In listening to TD Jakes “10 Things Every Single Person Ought To Do” he states that we should seek to live a whole life as a single person; try new and different things until to find those things that bring you fulfillment so that you’re/I’m not seeking fulfillment from those around me…

“The State” may work for others, but I refuse to be TRAPPED and that’s how I feel……….TRAPPED…

Trapped in this environment that wants me to conform and lose my spirit. Conforming to what they want and who they think I should be.

I’m not going to run. As a matter of fact, I’m going to stay for the next few years, find that thing or things that bring me fulfillment and then seek out a job that brings me fulfillment.

People would have us/me to believe that this is a fairytale and an unrealistic expectation (they would also have us to believe this about dating & feeling that one should settle), but don’t you think life is too long, as well as, too short to live it being miserable and unfulfilled…

Well, I would say so………